I'm quickly realizing how irritated I have become with my own life as a mother and/or human being...... I judge myself constantly over things, situations, trials that are so trivial.
1. OMG i didn't do Elf on the shelf
2. OMG i didn't make a five course meal..... for breakfast
3. OMG today my 2 year old didn't hit an unrealistic milestone for his age
I've seen a lot of blame on Pinterest but I REALLY blame Facebook... Twitter and just social media in general.... I just wonder,
Who are you REALLY?
I've been feeling a lot of shame and honestly, depression lately..... because apparently everyone is better at everything than I am.... No one has pain or concerns or the ability to take a bad picture.....
I will say, I understand depression can be genetic, so do I just need a pill?
My situation is specific, I have a 2 year old little boy... His father basically abandoned us, I am 30 years old and back with my parents... I know what most will say....
"No wonder you feel depressed"
The thing is, that has nothing to do with it... I live every moment for my amazing little boy. I feel blessed every day that I wake up and hear his voice... (even when he pees through his diaper or throws his socks and other items at everyone).
So, to get to the point..... I have decided to keep myself away from social media for the next 3 days.
-Facebook
-Twitter
-Instagram
-Pinterest
Only thing I keep is YouTube (because I love cat videos)
In closing, See you in a few days starting tomorrow.... I need a detox!
xoxoxoxoxoxo
SaraH
