Friday, March 9, 2018

Zoo Escape!!

Sometimes, things at home seem really, well, challenging. This is when I am incredibly grateful for our local Zoo. The Fresno Chaffee Zoo has undergone some amazing renovations over the last few years and even better its 5 minutes from our house!
A couple years ago my mom invested in an annual Zoo membership for all the kids and Grandkids. Although Jackson and I seem to be the only ones who really use it we get every ones money worth!


 So yesterday was one of those days when I just wanted to get out of the house, away from the gym and just have quality time with my little bug. The zoo is always the perfect place for that. It always gives us a breath of fresh air both literally and metaphorically
 

 Since my Grandma moved into our house things have been, challenging to say the least. Its a lot of personality in one household and having negativity and stress on a regular basis really takes its toll on me and Jackson. 
I definitely lean on the little outlets I have around town to get away with Jackson and just have time to be us and to build memories together that aren't soured by stress or anxiety of the environment.


I've also spent a lot of time on fitness. I've been back into Yoga and Running with strong devotion! I have a half marathon coming up this month which I am excited for and hope to sign up for more soon, including one that ends here at the Zoo! I will be talking about that more on my Mommy/Fashion/Fitness blog!


So what do you guys to keep your sanity? Or to stay focused? Any tricks or fun activities? Please share, lol I need ideas!
xoxo, SaraH

Thursday, March 8, 2018

My next phase of Mommy life.....


 Kindergarten? Seriously!?
I'm not even going to pretend that I have all my ducks in a row because every time I think I do I get blind-sided by yet another milestone that I had convinced myself was light-years away.....

So, on Tuesday I enrolled Jackson in Kindergarten and at first I was ok. It was just something I needed to get done this week. And then I told him to stand in front of his new school and take a picture. I snapped the picture for Grandma really quick and went on with my day. Gym, Target etc...

When I got home I got ready to post the photo I had taken on FB, IG etc and as I looked at it my heart started to feel so heavy and my stomach felt like it was going to drop. It was almost an out of body experience because all of the sudden this little baby (which is how I have seen him every day) was suddenly this little kid. Hes ready to get out there and learn about the world outside of what I can teach him on my own.

I suddenly find myself reflecting on everything I've armed him with in the past five years. Did I remind him to always listen and be kind. Does he understand manners and respect? Can he do it on his own? Do I want him to?

Everyone has such a special relationship with their children and my connection with Jackson is no exception... I consider it exceptional. We have each others backs like none other. And as he learns to guide himself a little more on his own I hope I gave him all the right tools to take a step forward but still remember where he is safe and how much I love him.

I want his sweet and tender nature to rub off on those around him. I want him to feel very strong in who he is always. I want the world to see who I see him to be. Special<3 
 

I know we have many more milestones ahead of us, like the actual first day of Kindergarten for instance (i cant even think about that one yet), but all Mommy can do is take pride in the person he has become, maybe despite his often clueless Mommy....

So I send huge props and tons of support to all the Mommies who have been through this (sometimes multiple times), the Mommies who are going through it and the ones who are still saying "Thats a LONG time from now" lol it sneaks up so fast.

All my love and best wishes!
xoxo, SaraH