My next phase of Mommy life.....

 Kindergarten? Seriously!?

I'm not even going to pretend that I have all my ducks in a row because every time I think I do I get blind-sided by yet another milestone that I had convinced myself was light-years away.....

So, on Tuesday I enrolled Jackson in Kindergarten and at first I was ok. It was just something I needed to get done this week. And then I told him to stand in front of his new school and take a picture. I snapped the picture for Grandma really quick and went on with my day. Gym, Target etc...

When I got home I got ready to post the photo I had taken on FB, IG etc and as I looked at it my heart started to feel so heavy and my stomach felt like it was going to drop. It was almost an out of body experience because all of the sudden this little baby (which is how I have seen him every day) was suddenly this little kid. Hes ready to get out there and learn about the world outside of what I can teach him on my own.

I suddenly find myself reflecting on everything I've armed him with in the past five years. Did I remind him to always listen and be kind. Does he understand manners and respect? Can he do it on his own? Do I want him to?

Everyone has such a special relationship with their children and my connection with Jackson is no exception... I consider it exceptional. We have each others backs like none other. And as he learns to guide himself a little more on his own I hope I gave him all the right tools to take a step forward but still remember where he is safe and how much I love him.

I want his sweet and tender nature to rub off on those around him. I want him to feel very strong in who he is always. I want the world to see who I see him to be. Special<3 

 

I know we have many more milestones ahead of us, like the actual first day of Kindergarten for instance (i cant even think about that one yet), but all Mommy can do is take pride in the person he has become, maybe despite his often clueless Mommy....

So I send huge props and tons of support to all the Mommies who have been through this (sometimes multiple times), the Mommies who are going through it and the ones who are still saying "Thats a LONG time from now" lol it sneaks up so fast.

All my love and best wishes!

xoxo, SaraH