I really wanted to have a memorable Mothers Day... I wasnt expecting anything specific but it being my first Mothers Day I wanted to remember it fondly.. Not in a vain sort of way but in a "I'm so proud of being a mom and I work so hard to be a great one that I hope I can be shown how much I'm appreciated" kind of way, because let's face it, as a stay at home mom, you rarely feel appreciated by those around you.. Jackson can't tell me that and Kenny rarely does... His appreciation comes in the form of eating a full plate of the dinner I managed to cook...
I wasnt with Kenny on Mothers Day, I was out of town visiting my Mommy... Though if I was home, I dont expect I would have a much of a different day as Kenny has never been much for gift giving or really celebrating any kind of holiday... I rarely receive christmas or birthday gifts... (He grew up as a Jehovahs Witness)
Kenny called me first thing Sunday morning to wish me a Happy Mothers Day but I didnt talk to him much the rest of the day and we didnt do much either. It was nice to relax and be a bit lazy but as the day progressed I began to feel a bit sad... I can't even explain why.. Was it the lack of attention? Was it the lack of Kenny? What was it?
I saw all my amazing friends on Instagram and Facebook posting photos of their amazing bouquet of flowers or talking about their dinner dates.. I felt so jealous...
I crawled into bed that night with Jackson and knew that all that mattered was him.. Just him... But I also knew why I was sad... I never received a single card or item to say "Hey, this is your first Mothers Day". Nothing to remember the day, to show that I'm part of the Mommy Day club... It made me break down in tears... I went into the living room and my mom said "Did you have a good Mothers Day?" I said yes but ended up crying my eyes out to her... She apologized and said she wished she could have made it better or she should have bought me a card.. I told her no, it was NOT her responsibility or necessity to do that, I just wished Kenny understood the significance of the day the way I did...
I crawled back into bed and was just falling asleep when I heard my mom come in... she gave me a kiss and handed me this....
She made everything right in the world just like that... I then realized what it meant to be a mom... She showed me that no matter what, you are always going to be a mom... Its a job that never ends and you will ALWAYS go out of your way to be the best at that job.. Im so grateful for my mom.. she shows me every day what it means to be a mom!
I hate that I will remember the day as a bit of a disappointment but I will ALWAYS consider this to be the BEST Mothers Day gift I ever received.... It meant more than any flowers or generic card...
So heres to my 2nd Mothers Day! lol I know it only gets better and better! And all I feel is shame for feeling so negative on a day when I should just be grateful for being Jacksons Mommy!
I hope everyone had a great Mothers Day! Being a Mom means so much more than just a day.. But it sure is nice to get a little extra appreciation for all your hard work, even if it is just for a day...
xoxo
SaraH
I saw your blog URL on the Fresno Mamas group and decided to take a look at a local mamas blog... I just wanted to let you know that I COMPLETELY sympathize with this experience. I don't want flowers or jewelry or anything extravagant, I just want to be acknowledged and shown that I am appreciated. My son (who turned one today!) was born 5 days before Father's Day last year. I knew he would be here as he was a scheduled c-sec (stubborn little guy was breech!) so I went out and got a few sweet things for my husband the week prior to having our son. Nothing over the top...a groupon for a round of golf, a personalized ball marker, and a box of whoppers. This year, my first Mother's Day, I got absolutely nothing. No card, not even a "happy Mother's Day" till later in the afternoon. I spent the day waiting and waiting for something, anything, that would help me remember my first Mother's Day. Like you I cried. I remember looking at my son and saying to him that I know when he is old enough, he will make me silly cute crafts, and his big smile just melted my heart... And that is the most memorable part of my day! Just remember that your little guy thinks you are the most beautiful, special princess/queen/angel in the whole world...and vow to spend next Mother's Day with other mommies that know how to celebrate one another! :)
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